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Dead

Watch

Just sitting here looking at the world

As I watch I am in awe of the beauty that everyone misses

It’s like they don’t even know

Because they move so fast

They don’t get to see the world for what it really is

Beauty

And grace

Just walk at my pace

And you’ll see

The other side of the world people see to ignore

The world God made for us

Is awesome in fact there is so much more too see

Than the hustle and bustle of  “Real life” which in fact is just an illusion

You don’t see

the world of ours

you think you know it

but you only look to the dark

there is more if you just

watch

look

stare at the beauty

because there IS more, in fact I didn’t even know it

but

 now

I do

Just watch.

why

I've not yet begun to ask why in life i've been harassed by so many people and things. I don't think it's fair or right but that is what's destined to be, my, life. so why are there so many questions to ask why why why why why, I don't understand, i just don't get it I want to leave this life just want to forget it. Let me be with my Lord God let my soul be free, let me leave the ties and binds of reality. I've not yes asked you why, why oh why oh why, I have to suffer and feel pain, happiness i'll never feel again. Who hath wrought this death on me, who hath drove me mad I've seen too much in my short life and that thought makes me sad. why oh why oh why do I, why do I have to be here in this prison this confinement of reality, and insanity.

As they go on

As they go on,
as the winds blow
my life will go on,
will it stop? no.
I've lived long enough to be immortal,
mentally at least,
Yet it seems so immoral.
like I am some sort of freak, who has no life,
but with all my struggle and all my strife, 
i've not yet reached my peace,
because all of time and space has ceased.
i've not much more that I can say, my life seems to have lasted one day.
I don't care.
If it's not fair,
as long as I
get my share
of life.
as they go on, these people every day.
thinking only of themselves
in a all they live for is today,
they have made their plans, 
but they don't think,
about the things that make us sink,
like the fact that we die every day
little by little
whittling away.
as they go on
those people
living their pointless lives
just let them
let them live
until they 
DIE.

Life

                                      Life

         If you died, I would cry for you.

         If you cried I would die for you.

         If you laughed I would laugh with you.

         If you leapt, I would leap with you.

         If you hurt, I’d console you.

         I put more faith in you than I do in myself.

         I trust you more.

         I love you more.

         You are my heart, my soul and my mind.

         When I drift to sleep you are right beside me, not in body but in spirit, I know because I     feel it.

         Though I adore you, you drove me insane.

         The thoughts in my mind consist of just pain.

         The feeling’s old fashioned, we call it compassion.

         Forgiveness.

         Strength.

         Power.

         Angst.

         You are the world, the color the light, but try and try and try as I might, I just will never win this fight.

         Like they said before, thousands of times, in many lyrics and many rhymes, your mind doesn’t matter, only your soul, these things I have neither, those words are so old.

         Though I can think does it make me sane? NO!

         Can a broken soul ever remain? NO! It cannot, not even the thought, but remains life healthy and strong forever, so long.

         Colin Edward Hall

The watchers

                  Burning, burning forever underground forced to follow you all around.

                  That is their duty.

                  Their punishment.

                  Their time.

                  That is their sentence for their crime.

                  Their shadow is you, your shadows are them.

                  This is their punishment, much worse than Hell.

                  They wander forever, with no time to tell.

                   Their assignment is you, and everyone too.

                  They are the undead crew.

                  Watching, and waiting and following you.

                  They disappear in the night, to bring about fright

                  They hide under your bed, and they mess with your head.

                  You barely notice them, the light produces them.

                  They follow you, they follow everyone.

                  Again when you die their first shift is done, they follow the sun.

                  They live in darkness, like a bat in a cave.

                  In an underworld, of burning graves, your death is what they crave, cause they hope to be done, to forever die, but to themselves they are telling a lie.                 

                  Trapped down there forever, not able to speak, they have your face; they’re hungry and weak.

                  Emotionless except for what you feel, they cause you paranoia, depression, anxiety, they give you feelings that all humans feel, because we all have shadows coming off of our heels, these human emotions, caused by subliminal fear, envelop everybody every day, because you know they are here, they give you nightmares, they cause you bad luck, this is their revenge on you, because they’re parasites through and through, following, feeding, hoping you die.

                  They follow you, all of you, all of the time

                  You wont know they’re there, only if you look, but look away, you might have mistook, It’s a shadow, NO it’s something more, it’s you, your emotions, in this constant war, going, and going on, and on,

Forever and ever, constantly watching and waiting and following you….